| Everything was great. I was doing so well until tonight. I can't pretend anymore. He called to ask if it would be okay if he brought a girl home tonight. He would share her if I wanted to. HUH? Of course he didn't ask her if she was in to women first. I guess she isn't. He's not home yet so they must be having fun without me. I want to kill him! Now I can't even pretend that he doesn't screw around. He asked for my permission first! I wish I could say my heart is broken but really it is just my pride. I am about to turn twenty-nine. I feel washed up. Last week his friend was totally hitting on me. I turned him down because I know his wife is 9 months pregnant. Are all men this horrible? Do I just not know the good ones? After all this I just keep thinking about my son. How can I make him better than these guys? How can I protect my daughter from them? My dad was a cheater, my husband is, my brothers-in-law are. I guess I would be to if I weren't still so fat. Maybe that's why I am. Sex, sex, sex. Is that all there is to life?
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